Triggers

We all have 'em.

Those things that set us off and get us off track.

Stress is a big one for almost all of us and it hit me hard last week.

I love my profession and truly believe I am doing the thing I was made for.  Being a librarian is a VOCATION for me, not a job. 

But there are weeks.

Last week we had an author visit.  She was a wonderful person, we had a great turnout and everything went off without a hitch. (Ok, there were a couple of hitches, but none that someone from the outside could see.)

But I didn't sleep on Sunday, I was tired and stressed on Monday and by time Tuesday came around, I was ready for the event, and just tired enough to be a little on the numb side.  (that sounds a bit horrible doesn't it?)

The day after, I felt beat up. I think I just hold myself so stiffly, that I feel sore the next day. 

And also...while I am typically a happy and cheerful person, there is a certain "ON-ness" that happens when you work a big event in the public eye.  There is no down. 

So...that was last week.  And last week?  I cleaned a little less.  I washed my face a little less.

I didn't blog.

I let the stress of the week over-ride some of the good habits that I have been trying to adopt.

And do you know what one of my worst habits is?  Letting a slip turn into a fall which results in me (metaphorically) sprawled on the floor.

I hope not this time.

My house is back to being clean. My face is washed and moisturized.  Dinner is on the table (chicken osso buco last night) and I am blogging.

Not well.  But hey, baby steps.

I have another author on Thursday if you are in the neighborhood.